Pondering...... many Things

That's what I'm doing....I'm pondering.

I saw someone today and shouted hello but was blanked, I was sad.
Left me feeling confused and dirty, like I had been so bad that it was all I deserved. I actually question myself as to, was I, may have, or did I, or No I wasn't, and it's all in there. I dwell on these things to much. There are times when the answer isn't mine to give.
I won't push it, I wouldn't like that it may get worse.

I have made a few changes, new bedding, it's on, should I keep the old stuff. It's old now and a reminder of old times, but everyone needs a spare....Nah, in the end thanks to Toni's thoughts it got binned.
I will buy another spare set.
Also this week I threw out a suit.

I'm feeling strange. I don't have any answers to a lot of questions to things that have happened in the last few months, and I seem to be trying to sort it out by making myself someone else.
I'm not sure if it's good or bad because I quite like who I am and I don't want to be someone else. Problem is nobody seems to want the current me.

Perhaps that will change tomorrow, perhaps, perhaps perhaps...

Yes, there is a thing happening tomorrow.....