Persistent

I'm not sure who I am anymore.....

I'm not going to write this blog anymore.

It has been around for a long time and chronicles a lot of history and through it I have met some wonderful people who I have supported and who have at times supported me. But I found out today that I'm actually not who I thought I was to some people and that in one case I just seem to add a burden that isn't needed.

You try to be someone who cares and end up being something else.

I have some really bad stuff happening at the minute and perhaps I am just better off going through it alone. It isn't what I want but the reality is that friends let you down and electronic friends have their own lives very far away.

Time to go now....

Once upon a time

I reached the unreachable, but I wasn't ready for it.

I wish I had known that at the time.................

Infosec12

Well that was a very busy 4 days but I have spent it in the company of transformers, googly eyed monsters, acrobats, shoe shiners and the most wonderful array of young ladies dressed in a variety of costumes.

I have been fed cake for free by bumble bee's and have been charged really stupid prices for coffee, water, noodles and chips.
In the evening the Hilton charged me £15 for a burger and I paid an average of £5 wherever I went for a pint of lager. It rained...on me...heavily and London smells....bad!

Also, in between all of this I managed to do some business. I was there to do business and it was done, there are some very good contacts that I will be following up over the next week.

So, to follow, lots of pictures of the infosec girls and entertainment, I am not so geeky yet that I was going to take pictures of routers and firewalls so you will just have to trust me that they were there but that I prefer my memories to be of the 'entertainment'

Roll on Infosec13

Past Times

I popped down to Washington to see Mam tonight and after the visit I decided to relive a few old memories and I visited the two old houses that I grew up in, one in Donwell and the other in Albany.
Donwell hasn't changed at all but I guess I have some recent memories of that village to mix up the old ones. Albany looked a mess, it seemed to be much more crowded in the street than I remember it and I was really surprised that the garden in Albany is exactly as it was when we moved out.

I was a little saddened to see a place that has so many happy childhood memories look so shabby, and it was strange, so strange that the whole street seemed so small.

Old Friends

Had a walk down the quayside a while ago and I bumped into Damian Conway an old friend from Washington.
Swapped numbers and we will be catching up again very soon. Looking forward to that :-)

Work-life unbalanced

I just realised that I have been in the office for one reason or another even if it's just been for an hour every single day for the past 14 days and of course I have all of this week to go.

I get Kieran back tonight so I have decided that no matter what crisis looms this Saturday and Sunday I aint coming in. I have promised him a cinema trip and with luck we may have some warm weather so perhaps a day out may also be in order.

I aint going into work next weekend...not even if the servers blow up.....well...perhaps if that happens, but not for any other reason!!!

I managed to get out one evening over last weekend, that was me there doing the t-shirt & suit and no hair to speak off look.

I like that look, it very much is the mix of who I am, the ability to dress well but the stubborness of the t-shirt saying 'do I have too' and then the beads as usual, oh...and the lack of hair for which I continue to give my dad a hard time because I just don't understand how he manages to keep all of his aged 75 while I thinned out at 35...

 

It's all go for infosec next week, the preperations are keeping me very very busy. I will still manage to get away early for Kieran tonight but there will be working at home to be done.

I love my job :-)

plus ça change

It's like being on a roundabout at the minute.
Same old, same old every turn, nothing changing, nothing new but nothing very wrong with it all so why is it that I want more than what I have?

I think that most of all I miss sharing it all with someone and to be honest I am starting to wonder if that situation is ever going to change. Yes....I know that it will eventually but my life at the minute does seem to be following the roundabout pattern of a string of first dates. Lot's of lovely people and nothing like the buzz of the past.

It'll come...it has too...doesn't it?

 

Sunny Stevenage

At last, a fast run down the A1 that's a surprise.
Had a wonderful nights sleep, actually felt wanted thanks to someone I haven't even met yet, looking forward to that.
Just finishing a service station coffee and I managed to stay away from the Costa munchies, they did look good though :-)

and now.....

Infosec is a go, I have the OK from the boss to do it and now all the preparation begins. It's going to be three nights away and possibly the biggest audience ever but I aint scared....much...

I'm off to Reading tomorrow, that's a 4am start so no gin tonight :-( and I am looking forward to Friday which is at the end of a short week, even if it is a high milage week.

I have had an apology from someone who judged me. Seems I have been providing some christian food for thought. (Me!!! Go Figure)

I also found someone that I lost which is nice, even if things will not be the same, it's still nice.

And now I have to think about security and practice, then practice some more.

 

 

Damn...I'm gonna miss it!

As mentioned in a previous blog entry we are now through to the regional finals of The North east Business Awards.

It's in Durham on the 26th of this month and I am going to be in London at Infosec showing people how easy it is to break into computer things.
Damn....I'm going to miss it and I think we have a pretty decent chance of winning the regionals which would then put us through to the national finals.

Everyone has worked so hard and Centrex really deserve this award, we have been the service industrys best kept secret for far to long and its about time some trumpets were blown.

I wish I was going to be there, but instead I have a powerpoint to work on...work work work

I love it :-)